Regardless of Your Flaws

So I begin this blog with clarity on the purpose for which I am blogging and with an end goal in mind. The term cognitive dissonance is defined as conflict between what one feels and what one does. Upon learning this term there is not a better expression which articulates the second by second battles that I fight and have been fighting since the moment of my conception. Born into a family of strong values, Christian faith, philanthropic involvement and an expressed passion not only for "people of color" but for all disenfranchised people yet having lived my whole life on the north side of Minneapolis, I constantly fight between what I feel and what I do.

Having the blessed cursed of being articulate and outspoken, I often find that people do actually listen to what I say. This has always created conflict as I know I am not always speaking something of substance or something supported by sound doctrine. Yet I do possess an unbridled hunger for knowledge and an attitude of "what I didn’t know yesterday I will learn about today," thus I am constantly enriched and worth listening too. Through my phone conversations, blogging, conversations, and musical offerings I constantly am inspired by something yet it’s not always the same something thus at times my message can contradict itself.
My father told me many sayings growing up which I will share freely, the one relevant to today is "you can only complain about that which you are willing to change!" Knowing the complaints I have had about myself, I constantly am wrestling with the most effective method of changing me. I close this blog out with a biblical passage that expresses that inner turmoil in which I have articulated! Be blessed.

Romans 7:18-24:18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?